Rose - Day 24
January 10, 2021
Feels like I’ve been on a path to simplicity.
That young child lying in bed with her mind reaching out to infinity asking,
"Why are we here? What are we??"
Then having to shake her finite head as it couldn’t reach the answers.
Finding peace in later years in the answer,
Finding peace in the infiniteness in the finite.
Finding peace in suicide - that first real glimpse of what letting go feels like.
Nothing to gain.
Nothing to lose.
Feeling the us and them.
It’s all part of a bigger plan.
Let me in to the bigger plan.
You already are.
AH HA HA HA!!
Nothing ever stopped me from travelling before.
Perhaps a bit, yes.
And that also comes from the 'conspirital side',
which is very interesting!
I don’t like that side much anymore.
It’s almost as if that side is generating what is happening.
Time to stop.
If I get a test upon returning, I have been "defeated".
If I wear a mask, I have been "defeated".
What’s it about?
Cousin: "I can’t believe you let "the man" stop you from travelling."
(There is the Mama factor, not wanting to leave her.)
What a comment cuz.
Is it true?
I suppose it is.
This knowing and seeing the fallacy of it all can be quite trying…when thought about…hahaha
What happened to simplicity?
On my way!
This will take a bit more thought; wink wink ;))
FOMO to JOMO
Fear Of Missing Out to Joy Of Missing Out
Look at travel like alcohol.
Not missing nothing!!
The places we’ve been these last days.
Can’t replicate that.
Can’t find it, experience it, without.
Much more satisfying than outer travel, is inner travel ♥︎